A fine tool for learning the varied meanings of symbolisms.
Sunday, July 31, 2011
A fine tool for learning the varied meanings of symbolisms.
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Thursday, July 28, 2011
If This Vehicle Could Talk?
So many of our friends have stayed in our sweet little camp vehicle.
We traveled far and wide, surfed, camped, visited colleges, seen many National Parks, board games, family trips to the river to boat and water ski.
When I travel we take surf boards, skate boards, computers, mountain bikes and tons of camera gear and some good books of which seldom do we have time to read for being so active.
Often we base out of this rig and it makes for a sweet space to create projects.
A romantic cabana for guest on the farm.
Four star hotel or camp trip.
The later is for me more down to earth and preferred.
My job is full of hotel stays so when we take a break its camping in style.
This rig also is helpful for jobs as a dressing room for styling.
HOME SWEET HOME ON THE ROAD AGAIN.
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
My artful mind has a way of finding all the good in even the darkest topics.
I live on a farm and travel for work all over the world.
I have encountered some of the grimiest situations behind criminal minds to the most opulent dance floors of heads of State. Breakfast with celebrities, to sharing a meal with homeless hungry runaway's. One such day I am recalling right now was with my associate Andrea Bucci, an amazing person who worked along side me for years. We experienced so many things together from all walks of life. This one day we were shooting homeless people in NYC for Japanese Esquire. One such subject was a man sitting with his hoodie tied tight around his face...just a little hole so he could breath. I stopped and said "Hello how are your today?" He was a quite sort and I said I was shooting this story to help the homeless in NYC. He eventually took his hoodie off so we could talk face to face. His name was Herman and we did portraits, very normal and in documentary style with a 120 camera. By the end of the shoot he asked me if we could hug him. He hadn't had a hug in years. Both myself and Andrea hugged Herman, he smelled of the streets and I think it was one of the more meaningful hugs of our lives. Reaching out to others is key. Taking time for life experiences can set you free from your daily grind. So many friends spend way too much time in their cars on fwy's and on the net. I too do my computer time like most and since I live on a farm I have a lifestyle that is based on growing things and creating rather than hob nobbling around an industry that can consume one to never really have a life but to live on and off planes and vicariously through a voyeur observation. Sometimes you are privy to more but its really on a day to day occurrence pending the connection. I really appreciate all the opportunities that have been parlayed to me over the years and I continue to count my blessings.
This week its hard to say what is up....but farming is substance for my soul.
Photography is a passion
Family, well my kid is about out of here to college and its amazing to see the changes from last year this time to now...he's all maned up ready to go...a completely evolving soul on fire.
I m pretty proud of him as he's working many jobs, saving and taking charge of his life.
Empty nesting is around the corner and that too will be something to experience.
Book publishers are key for my work now and art projects that can make a difference.
California is the motherland for me and the sea is calling so next stop is surfing CA or HI
Jobs come and go....several are on the table and I look forward to those manifesting here soon.
One thing about living country life is that you may work all the time but I am surrounded by nature rather than exhaust and over population.
I loved living in NYC but I don' t miss the smell.
Just the food and all my pals and yes you do have more work at your fingertips when you are living in the urban setting.
Thankful that I can go from high heels to hiking boots in minutes.
Friday, July 15, 2011
I am always being asked to do pro bono work. Heres one for Family Advocacy, check out the video by south west productions (cut and paste)
A new campaign about abuse from Albuquerque, New Mexico, USA. Esparza Advertising made this campaign for the Family Advocacy Center (FAC).
No complex interactive storylines or messages. Just “abuse is a never ending cycle – unless you choose to break it”.
That is what abuse victims need, a clear and powerful line. No vagueness.
The campaign contains a video, a print ad, 5 different billboards, a radio spot. And most important a well designed but basic website: abusestopshere.org.
Family Advocacy Center (FAC)
Creative Director: Adam Greenhood
ACD/Writer: Jeremy Spencer
Art Director: Zak Rutledge
Art Director: Julia Amirzadov
Production Company: Southwest Productions
Director: Dave Roberts
DP: Barry Kirk
Editor: Clark Morris, Thirty-second Street
Sound Design: Sid Fendley, Mountain Road Recording
Stylist/Make-up: Liz Marshall
Still Photography: Karen Kuehn
Thursday, July 14, 2011
- A dear friend forwarded this to me, and as I feel it has some extremely solid, practical info contained within, I'm sharing it along. I trust you'll enjoy it as well.
The Shadow Dance— Understanding Repetitive Patterns in Relationships
“The psychological rule says that when an inner situation is not made conscious, it happens outside as fate. That is to say, when the individual remains undivided and does not become conscious of his inner opposite, the world must perforce act out the conflict and be torn into opposing halves.”
— DR. CARL GUSTAV JUNG
What is it that constitutes a good relationship? Is it getting along harmoniously, being loving, truthful, honest, supportive? These are certainly virtues and ideals that we all strive for. And yet despite our most valiant efforts, we continually come across problems and situations that puzzle us about our relationships.
A very interesting thing about life is that it all starts repeating at a certain point and those of us who are willing to live a reflective life, have to ask ourselves some very important questions. What is this about? Why did I attract him or her? And why is this repeating in my life?
If we’re honest with ourselves, we know that who we fell in love with at 20 can be eerily the same person at 30, and even 40. We also know that the same kind of person keeps showing up as our boss, as a coworker and even as a friend, even if we decide to leave and distance ourselves from their presence.
We can continue to do that for a long time. We can leave one relationship and find another, and we can certainly leave a job, or a friendship, or even a sibling who we have decided is causing us pain. We can continue to blame others for our negative experiences, or we can muster up the courage to take a long, hard look at our own Shadow.
The Shadow, is a psychological term introduced by the late Swiss psychiatrist, Dr. Carl G. Jung. It is everything in us that is unconscious, repressed, undeveloped and denied. These are dark rejected aspects of our being as well as light, so there is positive undeveloped potential in the Shadow that we don’t know about because anything that is unconscious, we don’t know about.
The Shadow is an archetype. And what an archetype simply means is that it is typical in consciousness for everyone. Everyone has a Shadow. This is not something that one or two people have. We all have a Shadow and a confrontation with the Shadow is essential for self awareness. We cannot learn about ourselves if we do not learn about our Shadow so therefore we are going to attract it through the mirrors of other people.
Taking Responsibility for Our Lives
The first thing we have to do in order to begin to see our Shadow sides, is to take 100% responsibility for our lives. This is a very difficult thing to do and no one does this overnight so we have to be patient with ourselves.
Being in the human experience, we have all had many painful, difficult experiences where it clearly looks like it is the other persons fault, or bad luck in life or whatever else we want to call it. So taking total responsibility for what appears to come to us is no easy task but it is well worth the effort because when we take responsibility for what happens to us, we can then learn and grow from our experiences and make new choices for ourselves.
Changing our attitude from blame to responsibility will change what happens next in our world. Our destiny is of our own making and what goes on inside of us will be reflected outside of us all the time.
I am very fond of this ancient axiom given to us by the alchemists of long ago:
“As above, so below, as within, so without, so that the miracle of the one can be established.”
What it is saying is that what is within us, will also be outside of us. Inner states of consciousness will be reflected in outer situations time and time again. If we are willing to look at the significance of these repeating patterns, we will see the synchronicity of events and situations and ultimately once integrated the miracle of the one is established as we become one with ourselves.
So What Does This Look Like in Real Life?
We have all had experiences with other people that really irritate us. Whenever we feel ourselves over-reacting emotionally to a quality or characteristic in someone else that pushes all of our buttons (and there will be a repulsive element to it), we can be sure that we are seeing a part of our own Shadow.
We will not be able to stand this other person or be around them at all. The reaction is usually extreme distaste as these characteristics or qualities that we despise or hate in others are our own and they are usually operating outside of our awareness. They are in our unconscious and usually they will be the exact opposite of what we believe to be true about ourselves.
Now a person carrying a light part of our Shadow we will be very drawn to, and may even fall in love with, and this is the ‘Gold’ part of our Shadow. So we can also project some of our very positive qualities when we meet someone we truly admire, but most of us have more trouble with the negative experiences as we encounter our Shadow. This is the psyche’s way of bringing itself into the light meaning the light of consciousness.
Projection and Denial
Projection is an unconscious psychological mechanism. We all project onto other people parts of ourselves that we disown, that we deny. We will usually not identify with the projected quality or characteristic at all. It’s them. It’s not us.
We will feel highly uncomfortable when we are around someone that is carrying a part of our Shadow. As I said before, and it bears repeating, there will often be a repulsive element to it. We will be repulsed by that person and whatever they stand for. It will feel like whoever they are is totally against our principles, moral values and ideals and we will be highly critical of their actions or way of being in the world.
So notice. Notice who comes into your life that irritates you or pushes your buttons. It’s usually something that is so unconscious within yourself, that it’s impossible to see that it’s about yourself. If it indeed is a part of your own Shadow, in time you are going to see how it’s going to start repeating in patterns.
Whatever we deem too negative to express, whatever goes against our highest ideals will be conveniently projected out into the world. Our energy is like a magnet and the unconscious is profound. It will draw to itself, itself over and over again. And generally the person receiving the projection is what analysts call ‘a good hook’ for the projection. They will be acting out that quality or characteristic themselves and usually they will be doing it to an extreme so it is easy to see that it is them doing it. But as the 12-steppers say, “if you spot it, you got it.”
Polarizing with Others
Jung believed that whatever we are highly identified with in our character, the opposite extreme will be in our unconscious. He called this the law of opposites. So unconsciously we will attract the parts of us that we actually badly need.
So notice extremes between yourself and other people, where you are polarized — one person is doing one extreme and you’re doing the other extreme. Notice how often this happens. If it happens often enough, then it is definitely something you are totally out of balance with.
Chances are that we are lopsided in our character and we need to learn how to do precisely what they are doing if we want to grow. Not to the extreme that they are doing it, but halfway. This is the answer to many of our relationship problems.
Doing Shadow work requires that both partners have to be willing to come to the middle of the polarization. It requires honest and authentic communication. Two people who trust each other enough to be vulnerable, and have a commitment to their relationship, can help each other see each others Shadow and bring about in each other a more cohesive state of integrity with the Self.
There are no accidents. Both people are attracted or repelled whatever the case may be by an unconscious collusion. There is an order in the Universe whether we can see it or not. According to Jung, the psyche is always striving for wholeness and if we can take our cues from nature we will see that wholeness is balance. As Marian Woodman, a Jungian analyst, so aptly put it: we have day time and night time. Which one of us would want no night time?
A Blind Spot
We all have ‘blind spots’ in our character as Dr. Liz Greene, PH.d., author of Relating: Living With Others on a Small Planet, points out. She says these inherent “blind spots” in the psyche that we know absolutely nothing about are precisely what creates havoc in our relationships.
It can be really interesting when a friend points out to us something about our character, and we will say to them, “I’m not like that.” We will resent them. We will be angry with them and we won’t want to have anything to do with them anymore because we will feel misunderstood.
So whenever you catch yourself saying “I’m not like that,” if it gave you an emotional charge when they said it, — you probably are like that, you just don’t know it. A really good way to bring your Shadow qualities into awareness is to ask a couple of really close friends to describe you on paper. They see our Shadow side way before we do. Our real friends love all of us, the light and the dark, and accept our humanity the way we accept theirs. And isn’t acceptance what we are all looking for?
Too Good to be True
We’ve all met people who seem too sticky and gooey. They are “too nice” and sickeningly sweet. We sense that they are somehow being fake when we are around them and we feel we never really know them. They are, as the saying goes, “too good to be true.” These people are barricaded behind their mask or persona. They will deliberately avoid any kind of negative reaction or emotion. They refuse to be real and suffer the acceptance of their own dark side and this can be a dangerous thing. We are better off knowing about our dark side because as Jung put it “Whatever one does not live, lives against one.”
Slips of the Tongue
How many times have you said something and then said, “I didn’t mean it that way.” Well we did mean it that way and our Shadow decided to have it’s say. The Shadow side of us relates to life much more authentically and it will come out whether we like it or not.
Repressing or denying our Shadow can lead us into experiences where we are overwhelmed by it and it can take us over. Then we can end up with egg on our face, acting in the very way we have denied or condemned in others and saying to ourselves, “Why did I act like that? I am not like that.” Well when we say it like that — “I’m not like that,” — we are like that, we just don’t know it.
There are many hidden and undeveloped parts in all of us and in attempting to keep our self-image intact, we will completely deny their existence. We do this because we want to be accepted by our society, by our families and our peers. Our baser qualities — our hypocritical behavior, our excessive greed, our ruthlessness, our ability to be manipulative — go straight into the unconscious. But that doesn’t mean they are not active in our life, they just live in the unconscious (unsupervised), and periodically they burst forth into our awareness and propel us into situations that we would much rather avoid.
Choices Versus Denial
So the more we know about ourselves, the more choices we have. We can then choose not to behave in a certain way. When we don’t know about something, then it will take on a compulsive, autonomous element to it.
These are the embarrassing moments that all of us in the metaphysical or Christian movement can attest to when we say or do something which is the opposite of what we intended to do or say. We embarrass ourselves and can feel really bad about ourselves because we are not living up to our ideals. Ideals are important and certainly have their place in our world, but not at our expense. Not when it’s not the truth about how we really feel or who we really are.
So learning about our Shadows can bring us the real peace Jesus talks about when he says “You will know the truth and the truth will set you free.”
"Everyone carries a shadow, and the less it is
embodied in the individual’s conscious life,
the blacker and denser it is.
At all counts, it forms an unconscious snag,
thwarting our most well-meant intentions."
— Dr. Carl G. Jung
We have to be willing to see the part we play in attracting certain relationship issues into our lives. We can’t change anything we don’t know about. And we certainly can’t change other people so we must be aware of our total Self, the dark and the light, and then at the same time make choices about our own behavior.
A Life-long Process
No one does this overnight. Shadow work is a life-long retrieval process and it takes years of patient inner dialogue with oneself to understand and even admit to ourselves that Shadow work is even realistic and necessary. It’s not easy to do and takes time and energy. Not always, but most often it begins at midlife when we become determined to see the truth about ourselves after a series of painful relationships. As the Greeks inscribed at the temple of Delphi “Know thyself” and “Nothing in excess.” Two very wise statements.
It is impossible to truly learn about our whole Self and grow into more conscious human beings without this kind of internal self-honesty and as Robert Johnson says in the book Owning Your Own Shadow, it takes a great deal of courage.
Rebeca E. Eigen is a graphic designer, public speaker and Astrologer specializing in the 7th house (marriage) and aspects to Venus and Mars. She uses astrology, psychology and personal stories to illustrate how we create patterns in our relationships. Her workshops make this difficult concept easy to use in our everyday lives. She is also available to do individual counseling sessions based on your birth data (time, place and date).firstname.lastname@example.org.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Now on Blurb.com
Check it out...entered the Book Now Contest.
A look into my career in NYC for 16 years of shooting for all the major magazines
and agencies. I thank the Editors and Art Buyers, Art Directors and all my friends and family who supported my works in NYC.
You All Made a Huge Difference.
(cut and paste this link.)
Next stop hunting a real publisher
know any please connect me.
Shot at the Mustang Ranch in Nev.
I own a silver print of this image and love the quality.
428 3rd Street
San Francisco, CA 94107
August 11th-September 20th
Pieces by many amazing photographers one each.
Kirk Gittings - Norman Mauskopf - David Maisel - Susan Hayre Thelwell - Susan Burnstine - Allison V Smith - Sam Portera and many more. I have one of my artist shot 8x10 in this show as well. Thank you to David Bram CEO Fraction Magazine
Friday, July 8, 2011
MY INSPIRATION MUSIC AS MUSE
Years ago when I was 19 I read a cover article about a photographer named James Woods.
Now the head of the photography program at the Academy of Art University in San Francisco CA.
I recall feeling those images as they had a huge impact upon my young mind.
Evoking emotions of humor and weather felt and timelessness.
I loved them so much that thirty years later I still have this article as it was a big part of my creative journey. I applied to the Art Center College of design based on this article.
James Wood was one of the teachers and I couldn't wait to get enrolled in his class.
I wanted to do what he was doing. Be creative.
I felt my mind was parallel with him.
Not even but I was a seedling who would sponge up all knowledge and begin the process of making my mind an athlete and go for the gold so to speak.
What fun. I couldn't believe that I actually had this person as my professor.
One day he came in and played music and had us all write down our visions from what we heard and than go off for the week and manifest those images into photographs.
I was awesome and I have been using this technique to inspire my students ever since.
Thank you Jim you inspire and continue to do so.
As for songs...usually all genres without words work well.
Dead Can Dance
All Windam Hill Albums
Jimi Hendrix Bad to the Bone Blues Version
The list is vast dive into international world music as well.
good luck, make this an activity with your kids and friends.
Than share the images.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
"Words do not accurately describe what you have done for me this week. Your love, all your special gifts! YOU have left an imprint in my soul and I am forever transformed into a new soul because of it. Thank you"
Love Cathy Budd - MI
Ron McClure - NH
Scott Erickson - CA
I will be forever changed I love it.
Katie Dulap - IL
Thank You Sooo Much
Yang Gao - China
All My Blessings
Megan Westervelt - CO
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
(by the way these bongos are mine and I swear Ben Harper my favorite musician lost em)
Today my son Emmett asked me before the sun went down to hook him up with a few snaps for a casting call tomorrow. No problem, we ran around and cooked up a few things so he could go in with some fresh images for his meeting.
So why not post my pride and joy.
I am the luckiest mom and my son is really beginning to bloom.
College mid August with a music major and minor in physical therapy.
He says he s going to be a famous rock star.
I say WHY NOT!
His song writing and producing is really coming along, age 17 and he's working on logic programs making sounds that merge Disorient meeting The Dead Can Dance.
Very sensual trance songs with vibes the listener can get lost in....and WOW he's on fire.
It wouldn' t surprise me if he D J's at Burning Man some year...
Watch out cuz he's gonna do something huge with his life
I feel it and his dad and I are so very proud.
Thank everybody whom has been a part of his positive processes.
It's our lucky life and he's a gift.
Graced are We for such a loving cool Spirit.
(cut and paste link to see student show)
Nude Self Portrait
Utilizing All Your Senses
Looking at Light
Identifying Light & Locations
Getting to know a Stranger
Dwan Light Sanctuary
Going With The Flow
Feeling the Vibes all Week Long
Getting our MOJO on.
(and much more)
Congrats to a Wonderfully Creative Class
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
"To my sisters, lovers, friends, and family of my tribe...
I awaken this morning filled to bursting with joy, gratitude, and love for YOU! For who you are to me is nothing short of Divine. Within you I see but one of the countless faces of the Goddess herself, and I realize that the Divine Feminine is not coming back to our realm at this time -- she is already here.
I awaken this morning aflame with a need to express myself to you, to let you know that I sit in humble gratitude for you. I am so very thankful that you have chosen to incarnate at this time, as a woman, to assist in ushering forth the New World. I am fully present to the task you have chosen to undertake: to arrive on this world, as a female, at this time in the ancient future, when the male patriarchal paradigm is in full swing.
By various males in your past (and in many cases, your present), you have been oppressed, abused, violated, dishonored, disrespected... and that's just the tip of the sad iceberg. For all of this, on behalf of all men, I apologize to you. I am truly, deeply sorry for what you have experienced, and I humbly ask you to please remember that in the future, if a man ever treats you with anything less than the respect, dignity, and devotion that you, the Goddess, deserves, please look kindly upon him, for he fails to recognize the divinity standing before him, and he knows not what he does.
I am certainly not trying to seperate myself from my fellow men... for I know, and own, that I have had my moments where I've fallen short in this regard, as well. Please know that I recognize this. If any experiences you've had with me personally have left you feeling anything less than fully honored, please understand that this was not my intention, that I am truly sorry, and that I humbly ask for your forgiveness.
The man I want to be to you is a source of joy and comfort. I want to be a friend that you can count on to share a laugh with, to cry with, someone with whom you know you can share your thoughts and ideas. I want to be a person that you can rely on to be there when you need to feel safe, solid, and secure. I want to provide an anchor for you, a source of grounding for you when your world is swirling madly around you.
The man I want to be to you is someone who will listen to you when you wish to speak, and will understand you when you wish to be understood. When you need a shoulder to lean on, please know that I will always strive to be there, like a rock, or your favorite tree (which you are free to climb, at any time ;o) When you undertake a project dear to your heart, know that you have my full support and encouragement, and when you choose to express yourself creatively, know that I will be there, open, ready, and willing to receive your expression.
It is my wish to be all of these things to you, because I see you. I see you as the radiant expression of the Divine Feminine that you are, and in your eyes I see the spark of love that you have brought here to share with this world, and for you, I am eternally grateful.
Blessings and salutations to you, and thank you SO very much, from the depths of my being, for being a part of my life, and for showing up like you do for me and my fellow men. I love, honor, and adore the essence of who you are.
Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! A thousand times, again and again, Thank You!"
With Love, Janus
Monday, July 4, 2011
"At the airport waiting for my flight...as the hoards gather up under the boarding gates at Southwest, I wanted to take the opportunity to thank you again for an amazing amazing week. I learned a ton and gained an amazing amount of experience but more than anything I grew..equally as a photographer and as person. There's a large number of reasons for that but behind it all was you..pulling strings for all of us behind the scenes and providing such a good direct and honest model. And please don't worry about preaching to your class...we came for a lesson and while we may not do exactly as you preach, we are always taking things away from it personally.
Ok, gotta jam but wanted to share something else, part of the secret for success this week and it comes in six-pack form which is really just the best way to edit photos... :)"